I just feel horrible today. I took the dog back to the shelter. And I just feel so bad about it, too. But after having a panic attack yesterday and not properly eating since I got her, I just had to admit that I'm not ready for a dog yet. Maybe in the future sometime, who knows.
I cried pretty much the whole day today, all the way to the shelter and she just kept looking at me as if to ask what was wrong, it really broke my heart. Oh great, now I'm tearing up again. Anyway, I just really hope she gets supernice owners soon. But I just didn't trust myself to try it out much longer. She already got pretty attached and I just feared it'd be worse for her if I kept her for longer only to realise that yeah, I really can't do it. :(
If it had been a cat I would have tried for longer since I know I can live with cats and "get" them, but with a dog it just kind of felt too "risky" in a way.
Well, I guess I'll spend the rest of the day just crying and lying in bed, it's pathetic. But it really just broke my heart.
I cried pretty much the whole day today, all the way to the shelter and she just kept looking at me as if to ask what was wrong, it really broke my heart. Oh great, now I'm tearing up again. Anyway, I just really hope she gets supernice owners soon. But I just didn't trust myself to try it out much longer. She already got pretty attached and I just feared it'd be worse for her if I kept her for longer only to realise that yeah, I really can't do it. :(
If it had been a cat I would have tried for longer since I know I can live with cats and "get" them, but with a dog it just kind of felt too "risky" in a way.
Well, I guess I'll spend the rest of the day just crying and lying in bed, it's pathetic. But it really just broke my heart.
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Date: 2012-10-13 09:10 am (UTC)Well, one day I'll manage and have a pet again, maybe a cat since I know how they "tick"...
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Date: 2012-10-16 09:04 pm (UTC)Möcht am liebsten mitweinen, ich versteh dich so ... Aber du hast das Richtige getan. Kann ich auch verstehen, wäre wohl auch in Panik geraten. Ist echt besser so.
Und ich weiß, was so Hundeaugen mit einem machen können, aber beruhig dich - Hunde sind ziemlich doof und jetzt freut sie sich wahrscheinlich schon wieder, dass sie ihren eigenen Schwanz jagen kann XD
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Date: 2012-10-16 09:07 pm (UTC)Ich hoffe, sie hat schon wieder wen gefunden. Aber ich trau mich nicht, auf der Tierheimseite nachzuschauen, falls das schlechte Gewissen zu groß wird...
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:30 pm (UTC)... Wie wärs mit nem Meerschwein? xD;
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:32 pm (UTC)Meerschwein? Ich weiß nicht. :P Vielleicht eher ein Kaninchen...
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:33 pm (UTC)Ja ich hab auch grad an Karnickel gedacht, obwohl ich kein Fan von den Tieren bin ... aber die kannst du auch so frei in der Wohnung laufen lassen, sowas find ich total cool XP
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:36 pm (UTC)Hamster find ich auch knuffig. Aber im Grunde will ich am liebsten n Kätzchen (oder n Hund, aber gebranntes Kind scheut das Feuer und so...). </3
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:38 pm (UTC)Ja versteh ich auch =) Wann machst du deinen Master in Hamburg? xDD
Werd mal im Bett verschwinden, morgen is Frühdienst =) Gute Nacht ^^
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Date: 2012-10-16 10:39 pm (UTC)Gute Nacht! Schlaf gut. :)