Guess what!!

[urania]

Yes, there IS a reason why I'm writing in English...

Today I noticed something really creepy. I don't even know why I didn't notice it way earlier, perhaps that is what scares me. Yeah... You wanna know now, eh?

Okay, I'll tell you, sometimes when I'm thinking the "voice in my head" switches to English, and I've no idea why!! And then I think in English and... ewww... I mean, when you look at my English tests in school, you would never ever think such a thing, but yeah, I now noticed it, and I'm scared. If I were at least able to speak English fluently. Hmm, I don't even know if I can do that. I never really had the chance to try. Arghhh... damn. How pathetic is this, I can't even think in my mother tongue. Does that make my mind some kinda confused now? Well, I dunno...

Wanna know WHEN I noticed? I was listening to some (English) music and then I wanted to do some math problems, and I began writing in English. And then I lacked a vocable and... yeah, then I noticed. Strange, huh? Anyway, I think it's strange.

That makes me wish now I could speak English properly, or at least fluently. *sigh*

Comments

Welcome to the freaks... XD~

[isegrim-chan.livejournal.com]

My thoughts exactly. :D I have the same problem. Your English in your head is perfect and when it comes to speaking you begin to stutter. It's so awful!
I think thinking in English is not bad. But I have noticed that sometimes I forget the German word. Or the expression. And then I write that (but that never ever happened with math! xD). Loss of mother tongue. Nah, you've just found another way to express it. And well,.. it's just another language.
Neverthelss, all in al it's not that bad to do so. English is important. ;)

I LOVE RAMBLING!!!! (Can't say it enough. xP)
Btw, I so love the new layout of your journal. ^^ It's so dreamy-colored (I hope you know what I mean...) and a relief for the eye. xD The blueish is soothing. Guess, I will visit your Journal more often. *heehee*

Re: Welcome to the freaks... XD~

[urania-chan.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I mean it's not that bad thinking in English, it's just... creepy, in my opinion that is. And that I didn't notice before, that is what freaks me out! Really, if I could at least speak English as good as I think in English, it'd be perfect. But it's so the opposite. It quite sucks ass. Yeah, English may be imortant, but in school, where this English thinkin' thingy would come in really handy, it's just... gone with the wind. *sigh* That's so unfair, don't ya think?

Yeah, me too!! xD

Oh thanks. :) I was just thinking, it's time for something new and experimented with the colors. Purple was quite... purple, so I settled with blue. :) Some kinda pastel-blue. At least, it's supposed to be. ;)
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