:(

I just feel horrible today. I took the dog back to the shelter. And I just feel so bad about it, too. But after having a panic attack yesterday and not properly eating since I got her, I just had to admit that I'm not ready for a dog yet. Maybe in the future sometime, who knows.

I cried pretty much the whole day today, all the way to the shelter and she just kept looking at me as if to ask what was wrong, it really broke my heart. Oh great, now I'm tearing up again. Anyway, I just really hope she gets supernice owners soon. But I just didn't trust myself to try it out much longer. She already got pretty attached and I just feared it'd be worse for her if I kept her for longer only to realise that yeah, I really can't do it. :(

If it had been a cat I would have tried for longer since I know I can live with cats and "get" them, but with a dog it just kind of felt too "risky" in a way.

Well, I guess I'll spend the rest of the day just crying and lying in bed, it's pathetic. But it really just broke my heart.